That song pretty much sums up my life (love life if you wanna call it like that) right about now. Will tone down a little bit on the fashion hype on this blog. I think I am in the mood to get mellow just for tonight. (Eeeeeek did I sound uber cheesy??)
Anyway, it’s finally a month (or more) since I ended up a relationship I thought that would last. UGH. I sounded cheesy again HAHA but I couldn’t think of how else to say it :p
This time though, I guess it’s more than goodbye. I know my friends won’t believe this (even until now) because they’ve been used to the on-off relationship I had with this guy. And since it was long distance, they would assume that everything would be okay once we see each other again. At least that was before. Right now, turning back or insisting to stay would only mean no light at the end of the tunnel. eff Gotye. You are so damn right.
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
Maybe……. it’s true what they say.. Some people just wake up one day and all their feelings for someone are suddenly gone. I wouldn’t call it “falling out of love” it’s not like that.. The love is still there.. kind of.. It’s just that, it’s not the same anymore. As Adam Levine would put it in his song,
I know it’s hard to remember the people we used to be.
It’s even harder to picture, that you’re not here next to me.
I suddenly remember this..
Only, I WAS 16 when I was planning about “someday.” 😉
After a month, I’ve only talked about this tonight and 3 of my friends. Also, I stumbled upon this perfect photo on Tumblr:
(sorry I couldn’t give credits 😦 there was nothing indicated. but whoever made this, I’m sorry I had to use your photo without your permission.)
CLOSURE maybe that’s all I need. But since “you” have finally decided to put me behind without even saying goodbye, then I guess there’s nothing more I could do about that.
Then it got me thinking again.. what if……
Then that person you know becomes that person you KNEW.
That’s how it usually goes, right?
I painfully admit…….
Loneliness stealthily creeps in whenever I see a couple from a distance hugging and holding each other. That’s when I look to my left shoulder and wish your presence was here but there was nothing. It’s the comfort that I look for that’s making me wanting to be in a relationship. Comfort, to be comfortable around that one person. I guess I will have to wait.
I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO WAIT.
Being a girl who is on her 20s and tries to experiment with fashion and still trying to figure herself out is something I would likely to describe myself. But when people ask me about my “fashion statement” or my “fashion inspiration/s,” I would mostly end up answering “anything goes” or “I don’t particularly follow any trends.. I create my own..” –that sort of hypocrisy. At least, for the past years that’s what I’ve been telling people.
Just late last year, I’ve finally decided to actually fall into a specific kind of “fashion culture.” Actually, I’m not only talking about fashion here. I’m talking about the personal style that I’m adopting and why I’m taken to it.
I follow/read a lot of blogs.. no certain genre.. and the words “indie” and “hipster” have always caught my attention. So I did my research and found myself deleting my Flo Rida, Rihanna, Chris Brown, etc. playlists in exchange for Bon Iver, Lykke Li, Feist, She & Him, Radiohead, Ellie Goulding, Lana Del Rey, Florence + the Machine, and other indie bands.
Hipster (also referred to as scenesters) is a term frequently used to refer to a subculture of young, recently settled urban middle class adults and older teenagers. Usage of the term reappeared in the 1990s and persists to the present. The subculture is associated with independent music, a varied non-mainstream fashion sensibility, and alternative lifestyles.
In the 1990’s, the hipster term came back strong in communities of young, middle-class urbanities. The dress was usual a causal mixture of grunge, jeans and tee-shirts that promoted Indie bands.
Naturally, wanting to “be hip” falls foul of the irony that no hipster would own up to. Being a hipster isn’t something you consciously strive for. It’s supposed to be a natural state, not something contrived.
But then again…. everytime we make deliberate choices about the image we present to the world, we’re working on it, even subconsciously. So I started with the indie music.. then everything followed. On this post, I will allow you guys to take a peek of my closet. No, I am not showing my whole wardrobe, just a couple of basic hippie clothes that I own.
Note: Hipster fashion is not easy to copy. Self-identity is heavily tied into what being a hipster is all about, however you will seldom find a hipster who accepts this title readily.
TOPS: bodycons, corsets, cropped, bodysuits, & vintage tees.
Hipster trends tend to change quickly, and when that trend is copied by others those in this life-style find new ways to express themselves.
BOTTOMS: vintage, ripped, high-waist, tattered
More than one type of hipster exists with a different lifestyles and clothing choices.
Basically, hipsterism is a style that defines all that you feel matters right now. Which goes back to my definition of style, “anything goes!” HAHA
Bottomline is, Hipsters are those people in the world who start movements in fashion and policy without commercialism. In short, the hipster is a title that the world assigns to the people in our society who are brave enough to do their own thing, without concern for what the rest of us think.
So find your thing… find that thing that you love and do it for the rest of your life. 🙂
I am finally back after a month’s hiatus! I apologize for being such an irresponsible, neglecting “blogger” I promise to try my best to make it up to you on this post.
So.. long story short, I was in Cebu for a month to attend some important stuff at the same time “vacationing” for summer. I am just going to summarize the highlighted events of my vacay and I will try to make separate posts of it. For now, I’m just gonna share a couple of photos.
The main reason why I went to Cebu is to process my transcript of records because I am going to transfer to another school to finish my nursing course. Yup! I am finally and fully decided. I need a diploma already to get on with life.
then…….. I was there to attend the hunger games’ premiere 🙂 I was super excited, I’ve spammed my fb and twitter about it for two weeks. HAHA
While I was on the plane, I was surprised to find a magazine that featured THG! HAHA well it was mainly about Jennifer Lawrence and her role as Katniss Everdeen.. but whatever.. still THG related HAHA
the night on that day, we attended the last full show and wore our customized shirts 🙂 On the right is my cousin, Bea and that Team Peeta shirt of hers glowed inside the cinema. She used that special glow in the dark glue for tees. Forgive us, that was the only fan mode day we had. HAHA
We occupied the whole “L” row and we were as usual the noisiest. The people behind us must have been very annoyed HAHAHA We got the best seats because we, well, my awesome cousin Kyle reserved it a month before. 🙂
The next day, I met up with my lovie Essa and a couple of my CDU friends to watch Anne Curtis-Smith’s No Other Concert at Waterfront. I’m sorry I couldn’t give you teaser pics. My brilliant mind forgot to bring my cousin’s DSLR and my point-and-shoot camera has no memory card. Genius, I know. *facepalm* All I had was my cybershot phone and it was no hope. And that ticket photo isn’t mine either. HAHA grabbed it from Essa’s twitter.
The after party was spent in Alchology with my cousins (sorry!the photos are kind of private :D)
On April Fool’s Day, my cousin had visitors from MNL and we gladly took them for some kilid-kilid shots at Streetlow then to Mountain View.
(L-R: Hydra, LA. Shobe, and my cousin Kyle)
Those are the only “decent” pics I could find. Everything was either blurred (from playing German game and laughing too much) or too dark (because we couldn’t we figure out the SLR’s freaking flash and we’re having too much fun to experiment)
Then came the Holy Week. My cousins and I had an impromptu decision to go to the beach at 2 in the afternoon. HAHA It was so hot in the house and we were so bored and we just needed some sun, sand, and the ocean.
We even brought home a pet jelly fish! But it died without even a name 😦 huhu
Biyernes Santo is family day 🙂 Visita Iglesia to seven churches and then lunch at Co Jordan.
We finished the 14 stations of the cross, had seafood for lunch, and the place was just so peaceful. it was a very holy day 🙂
Friday the 13th salubong. Beer pong with the wolfpack 🙂 Girls vs. Boys
Friday the 13th nightout with the Wolfpack.
This was actually my last nighout beforee heading back to Mindanao 🙂
Mid April, I attended my cousin and lovie’s graduation! yaaay! 🙂 Well, I wasn’t actually on the graduation ceremony because it was 7 in the morning and I was still sleeping. Went to their pinning which was held in the afternoon (that’s justifying their gala uniforms haha in case you’re wondering why they aren’t wearing togas)
That’s the last important event in my summer. My remaining days in Cebu were spent on satisfying cravings, playing scrabble or rummi with family, and then packing – loads of it. Sorted things that are to be shifted back home and stuff that I will include in my new room (yes I’m moving!!)
When I get back on May, it will be a whole new life. and when I say new, that includes EVERYTHING. Heartaches and heartbreaks left behind, mistakes were laughed at but will not be forgotten, old friends remain but ready to make new ones, and I guess it’s safe to say that I’m closer to where I’m supposed to be than yesterday.
Hiyaaaa! First of all, I wanna apologize for being so lazy on updating my blog. I’m not even busy HAHA but anyway, FINALLY! here is my waaaaaaaaay long overdue post about Valentine’s Day.
I wanna make this special since I’m doing this on the 1st day of March HAHA (yes, it’s already the start of the 3rd month of the year even with the extra day last February)
I don’t actually anticipate Valentine’s Day. Well, it was fun during high school and it was still during college coz I get to go on different dinner dates with my various group of friends. In high school, it was all about being swoon and having the young love and the first of everything. Since I entered college, I’ve been in a long distance relationship for (almost) 4 years already, Vday became nothing but an ordinary day for me.
So I woke up a bit early because my mom and I went cloth hunting and shopping for my pre-made clothes.
A for EFFORT haha. You can hype this look here.
(Kenneth Cole leather bag; Thrifted Polkadot Top; NEXT red shorts; GH accessories; Parisian shoes)
Before I was shot for these photos, I had a total meltdown while putting on make-up.
Le boyf’s sissie arrived and delivered a bouquet of flowers and 3 packs of M&Ms. I was totally lost for words. It’s not the first time he ever surprised me but I wasn’t expecting ANYTHING at all.
Oh you know the cliche,
Flowers will wither within weeks and chocolate will only stay in your mouth for seconds.
But I felt like I was in high school all over again and I suddenly realized that I am with someone who knows what they have when they have me. Love may be a word used too much and much too soon but love doesn’t come along too often. When it does, only the foolish let it fade.
How many people in a relationship can say that they love their partner even more each day? Cheesy shiz right? But I’m not ashamed to admit that I’m one of the few who can say it.
There is only one happiness in the world. To love and to be loved.
whaddup mah peeps!! So yesterday, I experimented with my hair again. Dyed it in flaxen 😉
I was actually aiming for golden brown or ash blonde locks.. But it turned out to be okay. Still happy 🙂
And today, I had food and retail therapy because I’ve been spending months just inside the house. Long story short, I took an off-sem so I basically have 6 months of “vacation” til I go back to school.
After dyeing my hair yesterday, I finally realized that my brows need the pampering they deserve. So I went to the salon today and had it threaded and re-shaped 🙂 By the way, it was really painful!!!!!!! The last time I had threading was two months ago. I was basically crying the whole time HAHA
Also, I went around the mall by myself so I ended up buying whatever I find pleasant to my eyes. One day millionaire. Now I’m broke and back to bumming.
Happy dappy 🙂 was satisfied with my brows! I even gave tip to my err.. what do you call them? “stylist” HAHA
Then I went to Bo’s coffee shop to meet up with a good friend of mine, Christine and talked for ours. Then on the way home (she gave me a ride), we dropped by our plaza to eat street food. Their kwek kwek (or Quail’s egg) isn’t too yummy! But it was my first time to eat fried isaw –chicken’s intestine (I used to eat only the grilled ones). Twas really good!
No pics to show by the way since I was busy eating HAHA
There you have it! I’ve been missing in action coz I went to my mom’s hometown, Dipolog City. Just got home last Sunday. Will make a separate post about my trip.
Bye for now.
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February 2, 2012.
I found my 10 year-old-Game boy color!
My baby since 4th grade which is supposed to be color purple HAHA
now it’s almost black!
I had it with a pokemon case and a couple of tapes and also the light choo choo in case you’re playing in the dark. My aunt and uncle in Chicago gave it to me when I was 10 years old.
This particular tape right here, Quest for Camelot (I think there was a movie of this! Oh yes, There is.. 1998!) played a vital role in my childhood haha. Because of this, I was dropped out of our top 15 class and ranked last since 4th grade. I’m not proud of it. Believe me. I lost the chance to enter a great school in High School because I always ranked last and never got the opportunity to take the entrance exam. I played in the comfort room, skipped class, or if I’m not playing, I read Archie Comics without listening to the discussion. My tutor always do my homework. And I’ve hid every report card I had until my parents were summoned to the office. Also, I was sad because I never got picked for the school paper just because I’m not an honor student. Kind of depressing but anyway, good thing I was still in the first section until I graduated elementary 😀
oh, it was only in 6th grade that we (my friends and I) finally got into the finish line of that tape! HAHA it was such a hard game!
More importantly, I have learned my lesson and now that I found my toy which has been part of my childhood, I cannot wait to play and be a kid again!
“There’s no point in being grown up if you can’t be childish sometimes.”
— Dr. Who
HAHA. even my light choo choo isn’t purple anymore!
There you guys have it. My little nostalgic post because I found my first love. trololol and if you’re one of the few who has been reading my blog posts, THANK YOU! I’m sending one, big, cyber[[[[[[[[[hug!]]]]]]]]]
This is it. I am really doing my 20th birthday post. Weeks before, I had this birthday wishlist uploaded on my facebook and twitter. Let’s see how much love I got on my tweenTEENth natal day 😉
2 hours before the clock strikes to midnight, I got a text from my photographer friend, THE insensible anthropoid, Mary Fel (right). She told me that she’s in Bo’s raintree doing her case study and that I can maybe drop by to say hi. 2 of my CDU friends were there too, Aiken (left) and Alexa (middle).
So I went there with my cousin Bea only for a while because the Wolfpack decided to do a countdown while playing scrabble or charades 🙂
I sat down w/ them for 30 minutes then my co-wolf Christine who’s in the neighborhood came to pick Bea and me.
I got mini cakes and cake pops from my friend Ethel who is currently taking baking classes. (Christine got this while I was in Bo’s)
My cousins and I happily tasted all the goodies then we played our own version of Pinoy Henyo. It’s a game where the person next to you sticks a paper on your forehead and you have to guess what’s written on it.
Moments later, all the lights went out and I was panicking until my cousin Bea came out of the kitchen holding cupcakes with a number 2 candle and a cut-out 0 haha 😉
It was a happy, happy night! 🙂 We went on with a few rounds of the game and had a few drinks then went to bed.
When I woke up the next day…..
I found this package from my mom at the foot of my bed. She just came home from her Singapore vacation. I got really excited when I saw the box so I opened it anxiously, I didn’t even bother to wash my face haha.
Will make a separate post on what’s inside these loveys 😉
My mom attached a letter to her gift and made me bawl alone in the room.
Included inside the parcel is this MAC lippie! I will make a separate post about my reviews on this one also 🙂
After getting hyped with all the lovely stuff from mama, I just went back to bed and spent an afternoon wearing my jammies, watching Game Of Thrones on HBO. They had a marathon so my cousins and I lost track of time. We were supposed to be at the airport before 4pm because my cousin Alina is going to arrive from Vienna Austria.
Time went really fast! I had dinner with family and after, we went out to chill. The apartment was really scorching so we decided to catch up on some stories outside before my party begins.
Long and behold! My G6 lovies came putting me on surprise number 3.
Apparently, somebody sent me a cake through them. People kept on arriving and I was overwhelmed by how unpredictable my 20th birthday turned out to be.
That’s me in house clothes and sweating profusely…
G6 minus 2. I love you girls! And to the person who sent the cake, thank you!
I thought the surprises were over. Guess I was wrong. I got another batch of cute cupcakes from my cousin Bea ❤
Was reminded by my own calendar that it’s my birthday HAHA.
LERIAS coven ❤
WOLPACK in complete attendance before the party started.
That’s 2 hours later. HAHAHA! our supposed formal pic.
Several moments later.. HAHA! 🙂
Inside the NYX box are 2 mineral based lippies from my girl, Garey.
LOVE it! You don’t even need to apply lipgloss for top coat and it lasts long.
This dream catcher is hand made by Master Wolf himself, @kumoto
YAY! No more nightmares for me.
I may not have all the money in the world and buy the things that I want but when I look at my family and friends, I realize I have more than enough. And that makes me rich :’)
I’m glad that I have mine! 🙂
Today was my flight from Cebu to Pagadian (my hometown) and my mom and I weren’t really expecting for my brother to be home until the 20th.
Turns out he wanted to surprise us by arriving a day before we do.
Having a 9yr gap with a sibling is hard because one of you gets really matured and your priorities change as you grow old. And now that he’s already settled in Manila with his lovely girlfriend, we seldom see each other anymore. Not unless I visit him during term breaks. He’s never visited me in Cebu :p
Anyway, I can never tell you when exactly was the last time we fought. or have really fought? haha He knows me very well and even spoils me more than my parents. He’s more protective compared to my dad.
So! surprise number 2. He leaves a bohemian bag on my bed…
..and makes up for the missed parties and birthdays and gatherings
Of course family is still the only treasure that we can’t buy. But like I said, he likes to spoil me 😉
I love you brothaaaaaa!! I know you can’t read this because you’re too cool to read blogs you’d rather listen to Chester covering Rolling in the Deep. But who knows? you might be able to consider reading my blog and you’d know how much of a cheeseball I am. HAHA ❤