That song pretty much sums up my life (love life if you wanna call it like that) right about now. Will tone down a little bit on the fashion hype on this blog. I think I am in the mood to get mellow just for tonight. (Eeeeeek did I sound uber cheesy??)
Anyway, it’s finally a month (or more) since I ended up a relationship I thought that would last. UGH. I sounded cheesy again HAHA but I couldn’t think of how else to say it :p
This time though, I guess it’s more than goodbye. I know my friends won’t believe this (even until now) because they’ve been used to the on-off relationship I had with this guy. And since it was long distance, they would assume that everything would be okay once we see each other again. At least that was before. Right now, turning back or insisting to stay would only mean no light at the end of the tunnel. eff Gotye. You are so damn right.
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
Maybe……. it’s true what they say.. Some people just wake up one day and all their feelings for someone are suddenly gone. I wouldn’t call it “falling out of love” it’s not like that.. The love is still there.. kind of.. It’s just that, it’s not the same anymore. As Adam Levine would put it in his song,
I know it’s hard to remember the people we used to be.
It’s even harder to picture, that you’re not here next to me.
I suddenly remember this..
Only, I WAS 16 when I was planning about “someday.” 😉
After a month, I’ve only talked about this tonight and 3 of my friends. Also, I stumbled upon this perfect photo on Tumblr:
(sorry I couldn’t give credits 😦 there was nothing indicated. but whoever made this, I’m sorry I had to use your photo without your permission.)
CLOSURE maybe that’s all I need. But since “you” have finally decided to put me behind without even saying goodbye, then I guess there’s nothing more I could do about that.
Then it got me thinking again.. what if……
Then that person you know becomes that person you KNEW.
That’s how it usually goes, right?
I painfully admit…….
Loneliness stealthily creeps in whenever I see a couple from a distance hugging and holding each other. That’s when I look to my left shoulder and wish your presence was here but there was nothing. It’s the comfort that I look for that’s making me wanting to be in a relationship. Comfort, to be comfortable around that one person. I guess I will have to wait.
I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO WAIT.